ten things i hate about me

ten things i hate about me
1. negative thinker
2. hopeless case
3. doesnt care with anybody else
4. mind your own business attitude
5. indecisive
6. impatient
7. unloving person
8. close minded
9. unfriendly
10. silent and shy person

sick and tired

after all many years of working, i ask myself, why i am still here? im really tired of working and waiting for something good to happen. isnt it i wanted to retire or isnt it i just wanted to do nothing else. many years have passed but nothing really special has happened into my life. I feel useless and hopeless. i feel that God is nowhere to be felt and have never helped me on my personal intentions. I always think that luck has never touched me thats why im still struggling. or is it i am not just contented with what i have for now. should i ask for more? i think i should when you always see your surrounding and realizes that you are left behind. is there a problem with my character? maybe someone could make an answer on this question. im really tired i just wish that i would fall into sleep and never be awaken anymore....