sick and tired

after all many years of working, i ask myself, why i am still here? im really tired of working and waiting for something good to happen. isnt it i wanted to retire or isnt it i just wanted to do nothing else. many years have passed but nothing really special has happened into my life. I feel useless and hopeless. i feel that God is nowhere to be felt and have never helped me on my personal intentions. I always think that luck has never touched me thats why im still struggling. or is it i am not just contented with what i have for now. should i ask for more? i think i should when you always see your surrounding and realizes that you are left behind. is there a problem with my character? maybe someone could make an answer on this question. im really tired i just wish that i would fall into sleep and never be awaken anymore....